My last day of work at the University of Utah will be Friday, August 1st. This is a little deceiving, though, as I work 4 days a week-Friday through Monday. That ACTUALLY means that, after today, I only have 1 more working day here. 10 more hours. That is a strange feeling.
I have been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster this week--pendulum swinging between excited to go and terribly depressed. Sometimes I swing for no reason. On Saturday morning, on the way to work, I heard the song "The Night Chicago Died (nah-nah NAH na NAH NAH na NAH na NAH)", and was singing along happily (if not well) right up until the line that said "On the street somebody said/ about a hundred cops were dead", whereupon I suddenly burst into tears. I must say that I was NOT expecting that.
The best guess that I have for that reaction is that for the past 4 years, my job has been to bring police officers home safe at the end of the day. I had NOTHING that was more important than that. And as of Friday, while I know that I am leaving my officers in capable hands, they are no longer MY hands. That is really hard for me.
I am handling goodbyes well, though--which is nice. Only teared up a little while saying farewell to one of my favorite cops. Darn it. Still haven't said goodbye to my closest friends. I'm pretty sure that it'll be ugly.
I'll be okay. I hope.
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If it's any consolation, Chicago didn't actually die, nor did about a hundred cops. (Well, not in a shoot-out with Al Capone, at least.)
That's okay, yesterday in relief society my mom started crying during "Scatter Sunshine" Explain that one.
and then today I did too when i was telling her a story about some time when I was little and my aunt yelled at me.
Emotions are a little high I think.
Let's not say "good-bye"...let's say "au revoir." Actually, let's not even say that...let's say "see you real soon (m-o-u-s-e)."
Are you busy packing? I'd love to get together, but I'm not sure when. Do you think you could make it to the end of our bbq on Friday night?
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